Need
Written by Kelly on February 10th, 2010Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. YOU are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not NEED you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust ME. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not NEED you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. You disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Fuck you. I hate you. YOU disgust me. Do not talk to me. Do not look at me. I am better than you. I do not need you. I despise you. I detest you. You make me sick. You are vile. You are filthy. You are a waste. Pay attention to me. See me. Want me. Need.
Who am I writing to? Why am I writing this? Is this good writing? Do you see yourself in this? Where? What part? Are you shocked? Surprised? Moved to tears or rage? Are you completely indifferent? Do you love me? Do you hate me? Do you care? Just tell me. Won’t ya?
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This post makes me want to hug you. I’m not really a hugger either.
And this post makes me angry. I think sometimes that if I give an inch….I might lose control. Does this make any sense at all?
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I wrote things like this periodically through my twenties. I still feel it sometimes. It’s easier to love it when someone else says things instead of yourself. So yes, I love this.
Does everyone feel this? I’ve learned to cover it up. Learned to think I need to ‘heal’ it.
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It’s good to get it all out.Intimacy for the wounded… sigh.
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I know that no one on the planet is worth that kind of negative energy.
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I shared this post in Google Reader so there’s that.
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Wow. That REALLY speaks to me. Like, a lot.
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unhealthy relationships just make me want to leave. why stick around and feed the negativity?
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I have been the giver, receiver, conveyer, and witness to those kind of words. The almost always cloak exactly what you put in bold. As hard as we fight it, we all need someone…or something.
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They almost always…you know what my fingers meant to say.
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stop reading my mind
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If this is about you, then I would say learn to love yourself. If it’s about another, then I would say study the resentment and look for your part. I don’t believe that I have felt that level of disgust and anger in a long, long time.
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everything you write speaks so deeply to me. i’ll come read your posts when i need to find peace of mind.
this wrecked me. ive definitely felt. ive said all those things but really meant “i need you.”
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I love you.
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This weblog is being featured on Five Star Friday – http://www.fivestarfriday.com/2010/02/five-star-fridays-edition-91.html
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Have you checked out the work of Dr. Masaru Emoto? The power of words…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lkbpXRSIUnE